Why....

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Its 8:15 PM. Am sitting in the office. And will keep sitting for atleast another 4-5 hours. Working? Nah.. Doing nothing at all....Its not that I don't have work. Got loadsa it right now. Have to do so much for the oncoming trip....but its that I just dont feel like working. Life's become a drag...
The same old routine everyday. Wake up, get ready, go to office, work, come back, sleep. Throw in a couple of eating time slots in there too. Even the games now bore me...
What am I missing??For Christ's sake its been only about 10 months since I've been working and I already feel spent....No enthu left for anything...
While in school, it was always like, just pass 10th, then life'll be cool.
Then college, I thought, just get into a good engg college, then life'll be cool.
In engg college, the feeling was, its just the last hurdle man. clear this, get a good job, then life'll be cool...
Now it feels life has surely become cool, rather, *thandi* (for those not knowing hindi: *without any spark*) as it should be put..
Read on someone's blog a few days ago: The motto of life should be "Wake up happy, sing a tune during the day, and go to sleep with a smile". And the way I am living right now, its more like:
"Wake up with a splitting head ache, roam around like zombie through the day (the only tune on the lips being that of the grim reaper's song), and go to sleep wondering if i'll indeed be able to sleep"

GOD, whats happening to me....
Is it homesickness?? Is it my laziness coming to fore?? or maybe I'm going crazy..
Or maybe its nothing at all...
Hope this phase gets over soon...